I haven't written in a while because I keep feeling like I should be writing something about my current art. The thing is, artists tend to manifest a body of work for an extended period of time - maybe for a few months, or even a year or two, and this work is basically kept from the general public until it is ready to be shown in some perfect or even a not-so-perfect space.
I feel like I needed to explain this to any viewers who may come to my site to see something new, only to find the same images from earlier this year. I do wish things would happen faster, but I believe
they are probably moving at just the right pace I am able to handle.
I am in the process of producing such a body of work, which was quite a jump from what I had last put together - The Unseen. This made for some awkward fumbling while I experimented along the way. Needless to say, this kind of stretch is healthy, but often frustrating, if not for the artist, then certainly for others who are privy to viewing any of the work before it is ready to be shown. Specifically, I am referring to a critique group that I am most happy to be part of, as they help me to constructively pull out pieces of my creative self and gather energy to hopefully put them to better use.
Then there is self doubt… crap, this shrewd nemesis likes to follow me closely whenever I question what I am doing. The inner critic tells me things… unpleasant things, like this series is not yet "there", so don't bother to propose it. Then I show a few pieces to my critique group, and I am convinced that my inner critic was right. With the exception of a few pieces, most of this series does not feel like it is quite "there", wherever and whatever "there" is.
Then there is health. Something you may have taken for granite all these reckless years, only to find that it actually was your very best friend all along. It speaks a language you finally understand, as it grabs your attention where it hurts, and you either listen with great intensity, or take a bow and kiss your lovely ass good-bye. Well, I think it goes something like this for most of us at some point in our lives.
Aches and pains aside, although they can be quite the distraction when it comes to studio time, I want to live life to its fullest… happily making art, doing all I can to be healthy, spending much of my time spreading love whenever and wherever possible.
Be still my inner critic. Be joyful, my precious heart. All good things come in time.